Love so kind....

Its been a little... I have had a rough few days.. make that weeks. But tonight was the worst night yet. But... for some reason I felt that my blog needed some love. so here it is.. I LOVE YOU BLOG!

update... none. ok maybe one small change... we have posts pone the wedding for now...... but in any case it is what it is. I have been having a hard time so I turned to what I always turn to and pulled out this letter I got a long time ago. It is worn and torn but it has gotten me through many moment in life. So I thought I would share a quick something by sharing the letter.

My Dear Child:
           I remember well the day you left me side, wandered through the veil and ventured forth to fulfill your earthly mission. I had a tear in my eye each time I clothed your spirit in a cloak of love and sent you off to school. Be assured that my thoughts are with you now and always. I love you with all my heart. I know your disappointments, your unrewarded efforts, your frustrations and temptations; but always remember- all that I have is yours if you will only come home again. 
           Realize that in you I placed a bit of Heaven, no one was exempt. I love you. You have some blessed gifts, some talents and some small part of me in you. Search for it, develop it, use it, and most importantly, share it with others. If you really love me, then help others find themselves and led them to me. Show your love by serving others.
           Repent of your wrong doings and humble yourselves. Make yourselves ever teachable and continually strive to improve. I gave you weaknesses to help you be humble- dont curse me for that. I did it because I love you. Be full of hope; dont let discouragement engulf you. Ill come to you if you need me.
            My child, cease your idle contentions-be peacemakers, for it breaks my heart to see so many of my children fighting. If they cold only see what I have hoped, planned, and desired for them. My heart breaks as I watch them;but you, my faithful child, are my hope. It is through you that my work must proceed. You havent much time and there is so much to be done. I beg you to get started. Accomplish the mission I gave you before you left me.I will help you. I am nearer to you always more than you expect. I have so much I would like to tell you, but I cant here. Come to me often in prayer. I love to talk to you, my beloved child. Be diligent in my work and my kingdom shall be yours. I would love to take you in my arms; but I too, must wait patiently. That time will come. Until then I leave you with my peace, my blessings, my love, and never forget I am nearby if you need of me.
          I love you and miss you so very much; and, oh, how I am looking forward to your return again to your mother and to me.

All my love,           

Your Heavenly Father

I am so grateful for the love that my Heavenly Father has for me. I am so grateful I am able to have the gospel in my life to help me through times I never knew I would have to go through. And im grateful for my mom... who holds me and loves me and gives me the strength to be stronger and better.

Yours Truly, 

Rainy days

Its not always easy. Not that I expect it to be, but when hard comes around I am not prepared.
 I would say that 80 % of Juan and I's relationship is great, 10 percent is past great beyond fantastic and into perfect, 5% is awkward,and 5% is..... Well challenging. If you ask him he might say something different sense our different views on things is what makes up the 5% challenging portion of us. Now I will tred lightly here, cuz blogging has a thin line. I know nobody actaully reads but what of the slight chance that they do? So I am trying to keep all my post strictly on our progress and not on emotion( not become a diary i guess).... But I came to the full conclusion of two things.

1: Im an emotional being, therfore 95% of my life is based on emotion and

 2: this is our story right? Of how we began? How our lives were shaped? So doesnt my feelings count into that?

I thought that if I slept on it the feelings would go away, but to my luck... they didnt. We dont fight often, but when we do I really cant stand it. our Saturday started like this...( speaking emotions)

And quickly turned into...

Although I am a big fan of rainy days, Yesterday was a bad rainy day.  One of those with muddy and what not.
I wont go into detail as to why we were fighting, but we both were wrong. We ended up going to the RSL game (which RSL won) together with long faces and bad moods. Its was the worst. I love him and want to show him everyday how much I love him... not my best moment.
Any way point of this post... none.. just had to write something about my feelings before it got worse.
Now I think I will go see him and tell him how much I love him...

Yours Truly,

New Alomia!!!!

            Finally had time to sit and go through the pictures I took of baby Cozy. My lovely aunt and uncle have a new addition... 

Baby Cosette Aveline Alomia

She is Gorgeous 

sweet 

and calm

She is just an all around love.

I was able to hold her for a while as Kristin finished the cute tutu Cozy was to wear. She made me want to have a baby! Marriage first , marriage first.... :) 

Being that this was my first baby shoot I think it went well. I love photography

but baby shoots are a whole different thing.

But I had a lot of help with Kristin

So..

Here they are...

One of my top favs! 

and this one is my #1... :)

Anyway.. fun fun shoot 

Yours Truly, 

Sunday Kisses...

 I love Sundays,
Time to play
Time to love
Time for.... Cuddles!!

Today's lesson for my young women class was on Honoring our parents... I made brownies and class went smoothly. Got to bring food if you want teenage girls to listen to you.

I love spending Sundays with family. 

Juan and I have tried switching of Sundays with our family's.

Today we were with his family. 

The weather has been just perfect for playing outside. 

We went out and played some soccer (which quickly turned into football)
 with Alexa and Giovanni...

I found out today just how out of shape I am.... o man.

It was fun... Sundays are fun...

Yours Truly,

Planning for the future Diaz de leon family home....

Probably one of the scariest moments of my life....

We actual went and looked at our first Apartment!

I love him 

I adore him

I cant wait to live with him

but....

Im scared, 

Its a change

there are now two of us to please

Im about the look... NO GREEN CARPET

and he is all about the smell.. NO OLD PEOPLE SMELL

so it will be fun to find our nice little home for our future. 

Planning is still moving along nicely. guest list for the temple has been our main focus. How do we chose who is important enough to be there and who we cant fit in. We are getting married in the Salt Lake temple. One of the most important reasons why we decided on that temple is because it has the most room for guests. We want so many people who mean so much to us, but family alone is like 35 people! But its our project for this coming week. Along with another long list of to do's, and Juans Anatomy test. :) 

an another Big week... 

Baby pictures are impossible. Before heading out on the adventure of home hunting, I went to visit Kristin and Cozy to do a baby photo shoot. I love taking pictures. I enjoy finding new ways of taking a picture to express or show you how amazing something is. Baby Cozy was born about 3 weeks ago and is such a cutie. So taking pictures of her was fun, but I have to give it up to all the pro photographers that do baby shoots... They are HARD. I am in the process of edit so ill post pictures of my cousin Cozy soon :)....

Yours Truly,

Engagments

Nothing clever to say today. We FINALLY got around to taking our engagment picture. My dad took us out to Midway and we were able to catch some good moments... here are a few of those.

I cant really put more up sense Ill be using them for invites... but here are the fun ones.

After some cold moments in snow Juan and I headed for Cade's wedding in Mapelton. It was wonderful to 

be able to share a beautiful moment with him and his new wife. She looked great and I can only wish them all

the love in the word. Juan and I spend most of the time sitting and looking at each other completely excited to be in the same position soon. I hope that excitement never leaves us. I hope even after our wedding that he hold me hand as tight as he did tonight, 

I hope he stands next to me forever like he did tonight,

And I hope he gives me the same tender kisses on the forehead is he did tonight. 

Im so happy that all of us are finding love.. True Love.

Congrats Cade Boy!!!

Yours Truly, 

The things I never knew.

Who knew that a wedding could have sooooo many details. 

IMPOSSIBLE!!!!

How in the world do people get married in two or three months???

HOW???

Its been crazy! I have been engaged a full three months tomorrow, and we have three more months to go but it does not seem like enough time! On the other hand....

I cant wait to be with him forever.

Today was one of those days. Much to do... 

                            Went to Thanksgiving Point with mom, Andrea, grandma, and Juan to talk to the coordinated about what ever needs to be done. I walked in with a list of about five questions... walked out with a list of like fifty!

            

Long Tables

Round Tables

How to do the gift table

What center pieces

What flowers 

How to do the cake

And on And on...

                                                                              

 I though I had it figured out.. turns out I had no idea what I was getting into when I said "YES"!  But I will say that it has been fun all the same. 

Im so glad I have so much help from family.... Today was good we are moving along in the planning of the wedding..... YAY!!! 

Yours Truly,

lists and lists and more lists

Sunday morning blogs are the best. Its calm and peaceful moment to go ahead and sit to write down my to do lists for the week and write down my feels. I know nobody really cared much to read my blog, I really have nothing interesting to say but it gets all that stuff out so I can concentrate on my to do list. Which is very long mind you. Now that church doesnt start tell one anyway I have all the time in the world to prepare for my week.


Im falling behind on planning and Im stressed out. There is no small thing about a Latin wedding. But I have today to sit and finalize everything I need to get done. Last night was fun. Val and Drea help us out by taking some informal pics for our facebook post of invits. I have been wanting to do it but we didnt have any pics to post up with the event. BUT now we do... They turned out great. I  know we need to do our engagements soon though but now we can get our list from facebook.

So big thanks girls. You helped me out with one thing on my list of many! 

Yours Truly.

Our families special day.

I have no idea how to start this post other then it was an amazing day. A day to remember. Today was the day Nina went into the temple for the first time to do baptisms for the dead. What a great blessing. She was so excited and happy. " Nina is going to temple to help somebody?" She understood the great work she was doing for the Lord and she was more then willing to do it. Of course getting to the temple was almost near impossible, but the Lord made a way. It was also the first time Juan and I went together. He got to baptize me and I got to see him us his priesthood power in the temple. What a great blessing to have in my life. He is quite amazing and I love him.

Thank you Nina, because of you our family went into the temple together for the first time.

Yours Truly.