fish out of water

Being that its a Monday I figured that I would start on my work out routine I had planned to start once I got home. I had decided well out in Florida that just because im carrying a living kicking person inside is truly no excuses for me to just take time off of keeping my body in check...
I wont lie, I used to hate sweets! I had some candy here and there.. but baby seems to like candy so I have an open appetite for Twizzlers. Sadly my body hasnt quit liked them as much and has been storing them on my bottom and legs. OOOO so unforgiving candy is.
So being that I used to be in tip top shape I am now having a harder time than ever with gaining all this weight so fast.. But I realized that Its not just baby, its me as well... I let go of my habits right as I started dating my husband. Before that I worked out on a daily basis.

 I want to get back to who I was before... I miss that. All through out high school I was a swimmer for Orem High... I was on the varsity team where we worked out 4 hours in the pool and 1 in the weight lifting room. If any of you were on a team for high school or for college you know the sacrifice it is. If any of you swim... then you know that its about the hardest sport out there... no offence to those in other sports, but swim works out every muscle in your body...
In any case I just cant stand being out of the water like I have been... its unbelievable that I have allowed this to happen. But no more!! I am going back to my fish like ways.

I sat with Juan today and told him of my goals and how i missed my water.. So he has made arrangements to help me out.. It will take time to get back into shape like I was, but i can start now and when baby comes ill be ready to go back to my old self - under water. I had sacrificed sooo much to be a "swimmer" to just let it go like that.. Juans brother later asked "why does SHE want to go swimming?"... I felt a slight stab to the heart as I heard from the room next door.. why??? why do I want to swim? because that is who I was! I gave up fun activities after school, I gave up boys, I gave up family time I gave my all to swim and why would I want to go swim??? SOOO tomorrow I am heading to the water! nuff said... Im sick of feeling like a beached sealion... I might look awful in a bathing suit right now... but I dont care.. i miss my water.

first ill need a new cap though.. seems mine went missing.. Poco Loco here I come!

Yours Truly